As you begin to read this book, it’’s
easy to see that I was chasing after
everything that hell had to offer.
The title strictly comes from the fact that I read the bible and the more that I would read, the more that I would find out about myself. I came to realize that I was running after everything that hell had to offer. The more that I would read the bible, the more that I would discover the man who GOD was showing me I could be.
Thank you JESUS that you called me out of the darkness and into the LIGHT. I was blind and now I can see; I was resurrected from hell.
Not one time did GOD force me into
any type of decision and it does not have
to be any different at all for anyone else.
I was at a point
in my life that I truly believed my life
was over. I myself even wanted it to be
over. I had been a severe drug addict and
an addict of many things.
I went to GOD seeking HIS
forgiveness: forgiveness that at one point
in my life I thought was impossible
life was so out of control and shameful
the list would be too long to write.
On February 17, 2006, I was arrested
on charges ranging from drugs, guns,
organized fraud, and several others. I was
also being looked at as a murder suspect
and I had no idea what my outcome
I had no hope for a good outcome and
was coming off of all the drugs that I
had been on. Being locked in a small
one-man cell just seemed to magnify
things in my mind.
The outside world
that I knew was gone and most of all I
hated myself for the stupid choices that I
had made. It felt like my life had turned
into a nightmare,
I was living in a world where people died
every day over drugs and money.
GOD, who came into my life when I
allowed HIM, accepted an ugly, sloppy,
no good mess of a life that I had created
there are two types
of Christianity, one being led by THE
SPIRIT of GOD (THE HOLY SPIRIT)
and the other based of what man thinks it
Every breath I take I hope might be my
last: when I look in the mirror I hate
what I see!
““I will just try it
once!”” I have done this with everything
the world has to offer, from cigarettes,
alcohol, sex, lies, cursing, watching porn,
and anything else you can possibly think
I lived to get high and thought the rest
of the world should do the same.
My drug addiction would have me driving
into a house at 55 MPH at 5:30 A.M. and
still thinking, ““I’’m OK; nothing’’s wrong
Along with countless other accidents and
in and out of jail stints, still thinking to
myself, ““I’’m OK; nothing’’s wrong with
me! I’’m not a drug addict! I can quit
anytime I want to!””
Chasing a feeling is an addiction itself.
Being high and feeling good with no
worries, or at least I thought I had no
worries, seemed alright to me.
you’re high, the worst news in the world
can’’t bring you down.
you wanted to get high you could be my
best friend and if you were a woman who
wanted to get high and have sex, well
you were an even better friend: two of
the world’’s pleasures that I couldn’’t get
The truth is I thought I could handle that
I thought I could just try it one time. I
couldn’’t see myself getting like every
other drug addict.
No matter how bad I wanted to stop I
couldn’’t and no matter how many times
I told myself I will stop, I wouldn’’t. I
would always tell myself ““just one last
1 PETER 5:8 (NIV) Be alert and of
sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls
around like a roaring lion looking for
someone to devour.
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