This chapter is based on my many addictions, including addictions that I never knew that I had. I believe that most of the time when someone hears the word addiction.... they think of drugs, alcohol, sex and so on. However, I have discovered addictions down deep within myself that only CHRIST, could have opened my mind, heart, and eyes too. HE was so... non-judgmental towards me and just as JAMES 1:5 tells us, GOD will give us wisdom without finding fault. And GOD did just that! I was wanting to get over my drug addiction and had tried everything from switching drugs, switching neighborhoods and even switching countries at one point. All in the hopes that I would overcome the drug addiction and needless to say, nothing worked. I tried AA and just about everything else that you can think of, all with failed results, I had to get high on a daily basis before I could even go outside. As I spent the six months in jail in 2006, I still was able to use drugs from the inside of a jail. As I mentioned, I had tried just about everything to overcome my drug addiction and the only thing that I hadn't tried was JESUS. So I am in jail still using drugs... feeling completely hopeless in being able to overcome my drug addiction. But from the moment that I said, In THE NAME of JESUS forgive me, GOD, things started to change, I begin to change and... it wasn't a forceful change! It was a very gentle and smooth transition without pointing out all my flaws, it opened my heart, soul, and mind to a new life. To a life that is everlasting and forever growing better on a daily basis. We're talking years of drug use, wiped clean... no more driving into houses at 5:30 A.M. No more police chasing me, no more waking up and not knowing what city or state that I am in or country for that matter. No more driving on the wrong side of the road, and into ditches. No more car crashes and cutting the airbags out and keep going days. No more having people beat on my chest to get my heart started again. I could keep going and going... these are just a few of my many experiences on drugs. As I said, there were so many other addictions within me that I started to notice when I allowed CHRIST to come into my life. HE had always wanted to come into my life but gave me the right to choose, HE was never forceful. And by doing so, I can't count the areas in my life that have improved. I was addicted to myself in so many ways, from my thought pattern... about women, cars, homes, gossip, porn, drugs, money, people and so much more and just my desires in all these areas as well. I never really saw any of these areas as an addiction. I had put so much thought, time and emotion into all of these areas of my life and really thought they had a purpose in my life. That's something that I have never had... A PURPOSE! Sure I had a temporary fulfillment in drug, sex, money, porn, and so on. But still was left with a failing sense of purpose. However, the day that I called on THE NAME of JESUS, HE gave me a never-failing PURPOSE greater than anything I have ever imaged for myself. Through HIM (CHRIST) I saw the illusion, of everything that I thought had a purpose in my life that I once chased after.
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